Saturday, October 27, 2012

Just Like That . . .

Sometimes life gives you options you don't want to choose.
It's difficult, but that's how things work.
You have to be hurt so much to know the meaning of life.
You have to be tired enough to know when to stop and let go
You have to be really on the ground to learn how to respect yourself.
You have to take the hard fall to know where you stand.
You have to lose to win.
After all, you are the only one who is responsible in your life. 
Sad to say, but life goes on for everybody even you're gone and that's the way it goes
Despite how hurtful and challenging life can be, You still need to go on, for the sake of people who always love and believes in you.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

What to do when 'someone' says 'bad things' about you?..

I'm still not over it. . . hehe. . . What the heck!? My peaceful life was shaken when I heard a news about someone saying bad things about me, either upfront or backstab. Some people are really annoying. Hai, they get into my nerves! I just wish they realize how much damaged they've caused to someone's life.

I just finished browsing the net and luckily I got myself into this site " ".  This site shows some helpful ideas on how to handle the scenario when some people says bad things about you. Check the lists below:

1. Don’t be bitter; be neutral. What happened wasn’t OK, but bitterness will end up hurting you even more.
2. Reevaluate your life. Recovery is always a good time to look at what you’re doing and determine if you are finding fulfillment through it. Did something teach you that life is short? You’re a survivor for a reason, so make it count.
3. Do the things you were told you couldn't do. If someone said you would never amount to anything, go and prove them wrong. Don’t do it for their attention, and don’t expect them to acknowledge it later. Do it for yourself.
4. Prove yourself wrong. Most people who have been sidetracked have allowed low expectations from someone else to come into their own life somewhere. You don’t need to prove anything to someone else, but prove yourself wrong and learn to set higher expectations.
5. Refuse to believe that you’ll never be truly OK. Why can’t you fully recover? Maybe you can, maybe you can’t, but don’t rule it out right from the start with the belief that you’ll always be a victim.

Waaaahhhhhhh . . . . . . I really really need to apply those 5 ideas above in my daily life . . :)
Peace, love and music guys. . . Thank you God!
Happy reading (^_^) ! ! !

Monday, July 16, 2012

Start LiVing your LiFe, b4 lifE leAveS You...

I always think about what other people say, I'm so sensitive about their criticisms on me, the way they judge me on how I look and think and I hate it. Why don't they just back off ! ! ! . . . Face the mirror and see the monster in you. These kind of people affects my self esteem, my work ethics and my daily life. Well, as I grow old one thing I've learned is I can't please everybody. If they don't like me, It's their problem not mine. I don't want to be the same girl who thinks of herself as a big failure, the one who is afraid to speak what's on her mind, who don't have the courage to defend herself when they judge her intellectual capability and who is always on her comfort zone. I want to dream and aim high, just like the old days (studying). Be competitive. I want to try and experience new things. Fulfill my destiny and make everyday extra ordinary.

I have read an article in a magazine comprising of sets of questions about how you will make your day extra ordinary. And I have fun answering those questions :). Please see the lists below:

1. What will you do to make today special?
         -  I will travel to different places with the one I love.

2. What is your dream job?
         - To be a national security agent :) like in CIA . . .

3. If you had no fear, what would you do today?
         -   :) .... geeeeehhhhh..
                                                    Sky Diving                 and                  Scuba Diving
4. What is the wildest thing you have ever done?
         - Suicidal attempt (bwahahahahahaha)

5. If you could live the life of someone else, whose would it be?
                                                                            - Cleopatra :D

6. What is the one place you would like to visit?
                                                                             . . . . ITALY . . . .

How about you, how will you make your day extra ordinary?
How will you live your life to the fullest? (^_^)

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Epic Failure

What a day! . . . I pursue but I fail.
I wanted to achieve something but I fail.
I did my best but I fail.
I always fail.

It hurts to know that you give your extra effort and time, then the result will be a failure.
I always get so disappointed about things.
And most of the times, I doubted myself if I can do certain things or not.

The more I wanted to learn, the more failure I get.
I think of myself as a prisoner of failure.
I pity myself, It feels like I'm forever be in the shadow of darkness and failure.

Everything I do is a mistake for everybody.
I feel like I'm full of stupidity.
I talk nonsense.

Haiiisssstttt . . . . Why can't I make everything right!???
I'm so stressed about things, I want to take some time off.
I want to go somewhere, where I can find my soul and self  and be at peace.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

STATUS: Bitterness

OMG, most of my blog posts are so emotional :'( I've tried to avoid it but that's what my heart dictates me. My heart is so preoccupied of sad thoughts. I've tried to hold it back, but for once in my life, I'd like to express what's really inside me. This will be my last post regarding love matters. Then maybe, maybe . . . I can finally move on and hopefully be happy.

It's been almost four months since my fiance and I broke up. Everyday gets harder to forget the love, laughter and tears we've shared.

Why is it love makes you vulnerable? You open up your heart to someone, then by all means you allow that someone to mess up everything inside you. You build all the fences and made strong shield so that nothing can ever hurt you, then one day there goes one stupid person who enters your life. You give them all the pieces of yourself, they did not ask to. Done dumb things that are hard to forget like hugs, kisses or saying the phrase "I love you". Then in just one snap of your finger, your life and heart isn't yours anymore. It digs deeper inside you , but all of a sudden it leaves you crying or saying simple phrase like "maybe we should end it". Loneliness and emptiness arrived. It hurts so much. The pain remains the same even with the distance that separates you and the time that passes by. But despite the pain and trouble that this one stupid person have caused you, you still love that stupid person no matter what you've been through.

I'm praying to God that hopefully I will be given a sign not to give up even though we broke up. But again, million of teardrops falls. I just received a message from him, saying that "I guess the best thing to do is to move on. . It ends but it's a starting point of something".

It's sad but it is true. :(
That's my sad love story.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Just Friends . . .

I have a good friend, we get along so well, but I guess it's better we remain that way. I just want to say sorry to him for I cannot love him back the way he wanted to.

Thanks for the cake, flowers and fruits. Thanks for the time you and I spent together. But I'm afraid I have to end your courtship. Maybe we should remain friends instead. Everything you do always brings back the memories of my past. It is my heart that you wanted, but I can't give you what you want. My heart is still broken and memories can't be easily erased. My heart still belongs to the man who broke it.

If only I've met you earlier, if only my heart can love again and undo the pain I feel, maybe there's a chance that we can be more than friends. I know you can find someone who deserves your love, someone who can love you back and someone who will make your life happy.

For now, I bid my last goodbye. . . So long my dear friend, 'til we meet again. . I hope we both can be happy when that time comes.

Monday, June 4, 2012

20 plus 1 things I can't say upfront to certain people

      Hi! I hope your having a great day while reading my new post ",). Basically, I was inspired creating my new post based from the list of 20 things that my friends can't say upfront to certain people (Hi Aiza, Jeff :->!). It is fun and exciting reading their 20 things post, so I created mine too. Sometimes I'm frank, but sometimes I just keep it all inside me 'til one day all emotions just burst out of nowhere :). So here are my 20 + 1 things I can't say upfront to certain people.

1. I'm grateful and blessed I have you :) . . . You love me unconditionally, I don't know how to survive all of this without you . . . I love you so much :)

2. I'm super duper in love sa'yo dati (^_^) (hehehe) . . . Kaso I'm just your younger sister. Minsan sumasagi sa isip ko, " what if I told you how I feel?" baka sakaling hindi maging your my "the one that got away".

3. You just know when to call. If I have only one friend left I want it to be you.

4. Thanks a lot for making me happy ! :) Kung hindi dahil sa inyo matagal na akong umalis . . . I'm going to miss you guys.

5. I always feel so degraded and humiliated because of you. IKAW NA MATALINO! gggrrrrhhh... Ang babaw ng reason for you to act like that, it does not match your age. . . Akala ko ikaw makakaintindi, hindi pala.

6. You're not consistent. Kapag pagod ka na, sabihin mo habang maaga pa. Hindi naman kita pinipilit eh.

7. I hope you realize that we are always here for you, we love you so much . . . Don't mind other people's think about you. You don't deserve to be treated that way and I hate them for being so rude to you!

8. You are one of the main reasons why I decided to leave.

9. Huwag mo sanayin ang isang tao kung hindi mo pala kayang panindigan. Nararamdaman ko naman kung may nagbago o wala eh.

10. Mukha kang anghel, ang ganda ng pagkakakilala sa'yo. Pero kapag hinukay mo pa ng malalim nabubulok na pala sa loob.

11. Birds of the same feathers flocks together c",) . Magsama -sama kayo!. Bago manglait ng kapwa, pwede bang humarap muna sa salamin. Hahaha. . . 

12. The more I love you. . .  The more it hurts. . . 

13. Somebody made me realized that I've done wrong things to you. "I'm Sorry". . .
Masyado ka kasing straightforward hindi ako prepared and I  am too assumming. hahaha : D

14. You are my "crazy little thing called love". . . Sorry, pero kinikilig pa rin ako hanggang ngayon, hahaha, ganun talaga :)

15. I love you more than you'll ever know. Pero bakit kaya? bakit kaya ganun? Wala ka man lang ginagawa, hanggang text lang . . . AM I NOT THAT WORTH IT, para sumugal ka?

16. Nagmamadali? May timeline? Pressured ako . . . Hahaha. Ayaw ko pa kasing mag-commit, 'di pa ako tapos mag-debug, R&R and YA eh :).

17. I don't know if I've ever been good enough para hindi mo magawang maipaglaban ang sinasabi mong pagmamahal mo. Ano, ganun - ganun na lang!?

18. Pahiram ng line ni Toni Gonzaga sa My Amnesia Girl :). . .
" Eh, tarantado pala siya eh! Bakit niya ako niyayang magpakasal!?"

19. Taray ng lolo mo 'teh! . . . Laki ng problema mo! Umayos ka nga, panira ka eh! gggrrrhhh...

20. Pahiram ulit ng line. Ngayon naman is from Angel Locsin in the movie Unofficially yours.
" Pero siguro kahit gaano kalaki 'yong pagmamahal na ibinigay mo, hindi mapipigilan 'yon ng isang tao para saktan ka :'( "

21. Ok na muna ang ganito. Hindi ko pa kaya eh. Kung ayaw mo, hindi naman kita mapipigilan.