STATUS: Bitterness

OMG, most of my blog posts are so emotional :'( I've tried to avoid it but that's what my heart dictates me. My heart is so preoccupied of sad thoughts. I've tried to hold it back, but for once in my life, I'd like to express what's really inside me. This will be my last post regarding love matters. Then maybe, maybe . . . I can finally move on and hopefully be happy.

It's been almost four months since my fiance and I broke up. Everyday gets harder to forget the love, laughter and tears we've shared.

Why is it love makes you vulnerable? You open up your heart to someone, then by all means you allow that someone to mess up everything inside you. You build all the fences and made strong shield so that nothing can ever hurt you, then one day there goes one stupid person who enters your life. You give them all the pieces of yourself, they did not ask to. Done dumb things that are hard to forget like hugs, kisses or saying the phrase "I love you". Then in just one snap of your finger, your life and heart isn't yours anymore. It digs deeper inside you , but all of a sudden it leaves you crying or saying simple phrase like "maybe we should end it". Loneliness and emptiness arrived. It hurts so much. The pain remains the same even with the distance that separates you and the time that passes by. But despite the pain and trouble that this one stupid person have caused you, you still love that stupid person no matter what you've been through.

I'm praying to God that hopefully I will be given a sign not to give up even though we broke up. But again, million of teardrops falls. I just received a message from him, saying that "I guess the best thing to do is to move on. . It ends but it's a starting point of something".

It's sad but it is true. :(
That's my sad love story.